i was expressing my worries to a friend once about not having a particular experience in life. she said something beautiful along the lines of "when i start to worry like that, i just think to myself, 'i've done all of these things already, thousands of times. i've been a sister to everyone, a brother, a partner, i've seen every waterfall, every sea, explored every cave, and directed every movie'…we've done this all before, so there's no need to worry about what we haven't done or what we'll miss". whether there's any "truth" to this is no matter to me. the very notion of it warms my heart, plucks me from obsessing over what was and what might be, and puts me here, now, with you keyboard.